Haven't posted for a while because i was very discouraged. I gained a pound on Friday so I was very upset. This was a big deal because I honestly thought I would have another big loss, so did the doctor. I mean my clothes are practically falling off me... anyway he seems to think the steroids caught up to me from the prior week... I still don't really get why my clothes would be like that then >< It's just very frustrating when you work so hard then see that.

He gave me a medicine that should help increase my metabolism... not to thrilled about the idea but I am giving it a shot. I am much more full but it interferes with my sleeping.

Well I have continued to be good hopefully I see results...

So I burned 1,357 calories yesterday! I did the 45 minute walking dvd (3 mikes) and of course my zumba again! Yay for zumba. 


Since I have been on the t3 I have had some good effects! My eyebrows are officially back! My left one more so but the right one is growing back too. Thank goodness for bangs! My mood has been more up and I am not as tired. As well as I am not skipping my time of the month anymore. And of course I am no long gaining weight which is awesome. I am so happy I finally found a good doctor! I want to like call up my old one and be like "you suck!" but I will refrain from doing so. 


Hope everyone is good!

Hey,

I have to get up early now because I need to take my thyroid pills an hour before I eat, I guess it's good for me to get up early anyway. For the past 2 days my upper legs in front are KILLING me both of them... I don't know if I pulled them or something but it is pretty awful and driving me a little bit crazy. Maybe it's the steriods... 

I don't know if I have ever mentioned this before but my fitness pal is a really good site. I have been using it to track what I am eating and my exercise since I have left weight watchers. It has almost every food on the list and breaks it down into not just calories but fat, sugar, carbs, protein etc based on your weight and stuff. There is even an app for your smart phone/ipod and if it has a camera you can scan the barcode of something and it know's all the nutrition stuff for you! Everyone should check it out. 

For the first time last night I did the fast walking dvd the 15 minute brisk one and normally I do the slow one. It was hard with my legs hurting but I was happy I was able to do it because a few months ago it was too hard for me to do. I am going to try one of the full dvd's today the 45 minute one.

So I have not posted in a really long time.

I started t3 medication for my thyroid 2 weeks ago and have lost almost 7 pounds so far so that is going well. Last week I had an asthma attack and ended up on a ton of prednisone (steriods) so I was so worried I would gain but I was down! That is very new for me and it's exciting. I am starting up zumba again tomorrow I had to take a break because of my asthma attack. I imagine I will loose a lot more doing it again.

I hope everyone is doing well I am gonna try and post more this week!

So I have not posted in a long time and decided I should... I am going through thyroid madness. But now since my TSH is normal the doctor refuses to up my medication... yet I am gaining weight every week, skipping periods, losing my eyebrows and about a million other symptoms.

I am still doing zumba every night (sunday they don't have it) and trying to stick to my points... it is just so hard though because I am seeing no results and working this hard.

So, after gaining weight last week I was really upset. 1.6 is a lot for all of the exercise I did and stuff. I have done zumba almost everyday. My mom got me a new heart rate monitor watch that is easier to use so i can track how I am doing. 

Zumba Yesterday- 45 minutes

805 Calories Burnt

105g of fat

2.6 Miles

3.6 Mikes an hour

Zumba Today- 37 minutes (left before stretching)

651 Calories Burnt

84g of fat

2.241 Miles

3.5 Miles an hour

It's pretty exciting to see those numbers and I really hope it all pays off... 

Went to Just Dance last night... the normal instructor wasn't there because she was sick. So we had a different girl who I didn't really like her routine. My bad foot ended up hurting a lot after because of the stuff she had us do. A lot of stuff where you stand on one foot while you do stuff with the other. So anytime I had to stand on the bad one it would hurt because it wasn't just for a few seconds. Oh well! Hopefully we won't need her again lol. My cousin and aunt was there too so that's always fun. My cousin starts college August 30th she's going away to another state for it so I guess she's trying to get in as much gym classes as she can before she goes. She is very fit though, just got her black belt in Karate last month.

Not sure if I will do zumba tonight because they are having an open house and everyone can bring friends so it will be super crowded. So I already did one of the walk at home DVDs this morning and going swimming in a few minutes. I am going to try and do the DVD again later it's only 20 minutes.

I also got a new heart rate monitor watch I can't figure out how to use! My heart rate is rather high though. It started at 90-100 before exercise (super high) Then during exercise went to 140. So who knows... maybe it's one of the med's I am on or something.

Went to zumba last night. Was fun like usual. Of course the fan right above our spot wasn't on and none of us could reach it so it was SUPER hot. But I look at it as burning more calories lol. On Thursday they are having an open house so people in zumba can bring a friend. I am not too happy about this because the class already has 200 plus people in it and crowded so I don't know what they are thinking! It will be crazy! Tonight is Just Dance which is pretty much zumba lol.

Eating is still not good! But I am REALLY trying today.

Last night there was a wasp in my bedroom (there was one in my room a few weeks ago) Anyway, it was on the mirror behind her bad and she wacked it with a magazine and broke the whole mirror... It was something lol. Stupid wasps all over the backyard getting in my house!

Hey,

My exercise is going pretty well since last weigh in but my eating isn't that great. It is not horrible like it was a few weeks ago but not great. I am going to be good now...

We have zumba tonight. We pretty much go 5 days a week and it's tough but it is a really good workout. It's hard for me to do a treadmill or something... I need someone telling me what I need to do lol. It also doesn't feel like I am doing it for 45 minutes it feels faster and I like that. I am getting better at zumba. There is one instructor who does a lot of like salsa music or whatever it's called and I don't really like that. But there is one instructor who does different ones that I can do better. I wonder who it is tonight... hm

Well I am going in the pool now!

Well I lost half a pound this week... I didn't get weighed in the past 2 weeks because I was really sick. I am sure it would of been up though. I think I lost what I would of went up this past week because I started zumba again. It was really crowded on Tuesday that they even checked to make sure people there had the gold card. I don't like it when it's that crowded but I am still glad I went. We are going again tonight I think at like 7 or 745 I like it better at like 5 because then I get it over with lol.

I am still feeling down but I am trying to get myself up again and not letting it make me not do anything like it would in the past.

I haven't posted in a while so I figured I should.

I have been feeling very down lately. I don't know if maybe I am in a depression of my bipolar or something. But I have been feeling very bad and crying a lot. Of course my eating is horrible because I am emotional eating. I know I am doing that... so I should stop right? I don't know why I can't >< And I am still too sick to do zumba so this is not going to be good.

Well that's pretty much it!

Need to exercise

I am feeling a bit better today... my asthma is still awful though. It's hard because I was taken off so many of my asthma meds because of my kidneys. I really don't want to fill the prednisone script but I will see... My brother came upstairs today and he was like "my throat hurt's you gave me strep!" He's so stupid. MEN

I am going to have to figure something out with my exercise and I am not going to weigh in tomorrow I am too sick anyway but I need to be SUPER good this week, I mean like total tracking and not going over any points lol. I might attempt swimming later... I am still debating it. I really miss swimming! I get so jealous anytime I look at the pool and it's so nice looking! 

Not much to post really... I am still sick but I think I am getting a bit better. It really stinks with my asthma when I get sick >< I really need to exercise when i don't it is always bad. I can et perfect but if I don't exercise at least an hour a day I will gain. Not that I have been eating perfect lol. I have the thyroid doctor on Friday she better increase my meds! I am going to ask her to see me once a month from now on until they get it under control, waiting 3 months is crazy!

I have read like 3 books since I have gotten sick, and that was on Friday! Joshua books are the bomb.

I called up the skin doctor yesterday to check on my biopsy results and they were like "it takes at least a week" even though the doctor told me 2 days! I am not that nervous I would just like to know asap.

Well, that's it!

I am still super sick! It is ridiculous really. I woke up at like 6 and had to do the nebulizer which is always annoying but I enjoy breathing and such. I cannot figure out why my prayers have not fixed this already! The only thing I could think of is that I read a new Joshua book since I have been sick, telling lady lime to read it made me want to again! They always make me have more faith and stuff so maybe God is wanting me to read them and if I was well I might not... Although I still completely blame my brother lol. 

Did you know that some people when there sick loose their appetites!? I know it's shocking, because I sure don't! If anything I go for foods that are horrible for me! Which isn't good considering I can't really work it off or anything... I was going to go in the pool today for a few minutes to see if it made me feel any better but my mom doesn't seem to think it's a good idea. It stinks I got sick when she's off from work for a holiday and it's super good pool weather. 


I hope anyone who actually reads this has a good 4th of July!

Sick

I cannot stand our tenants! I feel so sick and I was trying to sleep and they were blasting the TV until 1:30am! And making a ton of noise! It's kind of rude I mean we are considerate and try to be very quiet if we are up late but not them! So I wasn't able to sleep until like 2am. And my mom of course STILL won't have a talk with them. Driving me nuts, and they have been up since like 730am making noise! Do they not sleep, I mean the little kid is there and everything you would think children sleep! That poor kid had some coughing fit yesterday outside standing right next to his dad who of course still didn't put the cigarette down while the child couldn't breathe >< Crazy I tell you!

Anyway... I woke up at like 7 to take my thyroid medicine and decided to take my anti biotic (my brother gave me bronchitis) at the same time. Apparently you need to eat when you take that, and you can't eat for an hour after taking the thyroid meds so I felt kinda sick from that lol

I ate so bad yesterday... whenever I am sick I eat the worst possible foods. Like most people don't eat at all when they are sick... not me! It's really pretty absurd. And I can't do any exercise short of dumbbells or something to burn it off. So I really need to try and be good today... 

Lost .6 I am very happy it is not up but it's still kind of a downer! I didn't get a chance to do zumba this week or I think I would have done better. I also have the thyroid doctor on the 8th so hopefully she can increase my meds more and I will see more of a loss!

So I didn't get to go to zumba yesterday because my aunts car broke down we thought we were going to go get her but turns out she needed to work longer anyway so we could have gone. Instead I rode my bike and did laps in the pool again. I just really wish I could of gone at least once this week after the baptism party on Sunday and not eating well on Saturday. I tried really hard the rest of the week so hopefully it will be okay.

My aunt is borrowing my car tomorrow. I didn't really want to lend it to her because I am 99% sure she is using drugs again but I felt bad saying no. She needs to borrow it several times a year which was okay because she wasn't on anything. So she's been crying all day about not being able to afford the car repair and stuff. I feel bad I really do but she's probably using a lot on drugs... She has never had it easy with money especially after rehab she always struggled and needed help but it's just frustrating when I know she's using it on drugs and other things. I know she is ill but then she needs to go get help but she doesn't.

Oh well that's my rant for the day...

Well, I had blood work today for my thyroid and stuff, it is usually a big event for me because I tend to not do well. Blood work went okay, she refused to take it from my wrist like the other places do and took it from the top of my hand instead. It worked but took a while and hurt a little. But I was okay so that is good! 

I have felt rather sick today though ever since. I guess it's just a coincidence. I am really tired and have a horrible headache all day long. Of course when i don't feel good my eating is bad... really need to stop doing that. I just need to get in that right mind set I lost the past two weeks and don't want to have a gain, seems to be the pattern.

We have not been able to get in touch with my aunt all day which is very strange because she had off today and was talking about going swimming it our house. It's also strange because my brother had an interview at her job she was very excited about and was calling every 10 minutes about the past few days and today nothing. She is the one that we think is using again but like other things my mom and other aunts see no need to do anything about it and get mad if I try so. My mom is checking at her house now on the way home from work, hopefully everything is okay and she just lost her cell. Just called my mom actually and heard her yelling through the door so now I am rather worried :( At least I heard my aunt yelling back but it didn't sound good and the landlord was there too. Will pray everything goes okay... Maybe this will be a time that she will see she needs to go get help again. 


Well that's pretty much it for now!

My Dad just left, he fixed my two front windows of my car it was cool. I took off the inside of a car door by myself! hehe My car (xterra) had recalls on all the window regulators of course they said my specific car did not, yet all 4 windows stopped working 3 times so far lol It wasn't that bad. My dad normally get's nasty when working on something but he was actually rather nice. Then we got some starbucks, I LOVE light mocha fraps! 


Didn't get a chance to do zumba this morning but I went last night so that is good! I was kind of annoyed because there was this girl about a foot behind the instructer the whole time so I couldn't really see what was going on... no one else could either. Maybe the girl didn't realize it but I wish the instructor said something.  
Well I am going to go swimming now because it is SO hot especially after being outside all morning! 

Hey,

Down 1.6! Yay! I know it's not much but it's down and that makes me happy. I really can't wait for my thyroid to be fixed so I can loose a bit more at a time... Non the less I am happy :) I didn't do zumba yesterday because my mom was sick but I downloaded some zumba onto the wii and did some of that last night.

Zumba tonight at the gym :)

Gym

So I am liking the gym... I didn't think I would really do classes but it seems that is all I am doing there! I have done zumba twice and yesterday I did Just Dance which is pretty much zumba but harder. I like to go all the way in back, 1 so I can sit if my foot starts to hurt and 2 so no one watches me! Well, last night the instructor decided that for some of it should would make the back the front! So she ran to right in front of me!!! I was like :-0 hehe Oh well, I survived! 

I really hope I see a loss tomorrow... I hear that zumba burns a lot of calories and stuff and i sure feel like it does during it. SO I pray I will go down! There is a dietician there that you get a free consult with and that if you choose to do so you can purchase sessions with her for 25 bucks a session is blocks of 4. I am already paying for the Lucille Robert's and weight watchers so I don't think I will be doing that! My mom want's to though so I think it would be good for her. 

I hope everyone else is good! 

Zumba

So me and my mom joined Lucille Roberts! We went in today for the orientation and the woman was like "oh are you guys here for zumba!?" and of course my mom goes "okay!" so yeah we did zumba! Zumba with like 50 other people and with my anxiety issues it's pretty impressive lol. Good Lord it is some work out. I was drenched within about 3 minutes! But I was happy I was able to finish it :D I was so proud of myself. I apologized to my foot afterwards though! Although it wasn't that bad on my foot. My foot was acting up during orientation because we were standing for a while and it hurts more when I stand than when I actually move on it. I am wanting to try more classes, I hear there is one you do on a yoga ball which would be good for my foot. A few years ago I was obsessed with my yoga ball everyone used to joke about it hehe.

Well I hope all is well!

Yay

I actually lost weight! Only 1.8 but I am super happy that finally it did not go up!!! :D The tracking worked!

I did the good old sweating to the oldies last night for the first time in a while. I stopped when I injured my foot and I probably shouldn't of yet but I made sure to wear my sneaker inserts and stuff. It's not as long as I remember it... well I think that's because maybe it's not as hard anymore as it was for me.

I am thinking about joining a gym again. The one I used to go to I like because it has a pool but it's 65 a month after a big enrollment fee and I am having financial issues so. There is another one that my aunt is in and my friend just joined Lucille Roberts so perhaps I will do that because it's really cheap and no contract.

Well that's it, I hope everyone is good.

Well this weekend was a good weight watchers weekend. I have been doing really well. I have also been tracking in pen... this has made me see that I was definitely not counting everything... My guestimations were not good! Like I really must of been going over... 

I am also exercising more which is good. No more excuses.... Kind of a downer that the weather is not permitting the pool but it will again in a week hopefully, please God! 

Well hope everyone is doing well!

Ugh

So I gained! I did really good this week too. Up 1.4 this is just so ridiculous! I know at this time of the month it is normal to go up but I really thought I would see some kind of loss... The meeting was about tracking and stuff and I am thinking perhaps I will start to track in the book again instead of using etools. Maybe that will help me see things differently or something, and be more accountable. It used to be easier to track with paper and pen on the old program. But now since points plus has no slider it is more difficult and I don't want to carry around that bulky calculator all the time. But I shall do it anyway! I really want to see a loss next Friday and I will do everything possible to see that happen. I used to exercise 3 times a day and I am going to do that again starting right now!

Okay now... hehe

Hello,

Missed physical therapy this morning because I am not feeling too good, 90 degrees doesn't help! They want me to go in the heated pool there, it's like a 95 degree pool (used to be 100) and it's really hot out for that! Not to mention not liking to wear a bathing suit there, the pool room is all glass walls around it so everyone can see you! I might on Tuesday because I should be getting my new bathing suit in the mail tomorrow *crosses fingers* But if it's 90 degrees out, no way!

I really need to exercise big time today. Weigh in is tomorrow and of course at this time of the month I am always up and go crazy! I figure if I exercise a ton I can off set it though. I am thinking doing pool exercises, my stationary bike, and a DVD. I may go riding later but with this heat I am not sure. My eating has not been great today, been craving chocolate since I woke up at 6! I think i might even dreamed about it! hahahah wouldn't surprise me. I tried making a smoothie before, it didn't come out very good! I have no idea how to make one I really need to figure that out.

Exercise, lungs, mothers, and sims

Hello,

So I really exercised a lot today! Both in the pool (twice) and on the bicycle. It is super hot 90 degrees out! That made the pool nice but the riding, not so much! The pool is still really cold but I kind of like it that way now! And I get in really fast too, I figure I will eventually get in might as well not wait!

Then I had the lung doctor and my lungs are doing well! Have the lungs of a 17 year old, could of sworn they said a 13 year old last year! Either way they feel a lot better compared to last year which is pretty awesome considering I stopped half my asthma meds because of my kidney problems. Yay for breathing!

On the way home I fought with my mother... me and her are VERY close so I guess fighting is normal. Anyway she has a dissociative problem and it's becoming worse lately. She forgets saying things and get's very angry with me and yells when I remind her of something she has said not realizing she has no clue she did. I understand it's an illness and with my bipolar I know how frustrating it is. I just wish that maybe she would switch therapists because she has been seeing the same one for 14 years and still has big time issues and they are worrying me. Oh well I pray she will be better.

Besides that nothing else is really knew except for my obsession with the new sims expansion pack :-0

I have not posted for a while! Well I gained another 1.6 pounds, go figure. So I know I always say it but I am trying very hard this week!

I was excited because I finally got my school work done and my professor decides I need to do papers she originally said I didn't need to! So frustrating! ><

Turns out my aunt who is having a difficult time with the drugs went for a check up and her blood pressure is 190/120. So that is worrisome and she is also borderline diabetic (saw that one coming) She is refusing to pay her deductible to get her meds... my mom wants to pay for it but I don't think she should considering where my aunt's money is going to. But no one ever listens to me!

Well that's pretty much it... lol

Hey,

So I have not posted for a couple of days, have been busy.

I got a parakeet! It's very exciting really, I am trying to tame her (maybe her?) Her name is Jackie after my Grandmother. She is yellow, my favorite color! The lady at pet smart told me her wings were clipped but when I got her home I realized she was wrong after chasing her for an hour and her landing on top of my wall unit. Such liars there! I am not sure if I will have them clipped or not.

I am trying with my diet really hard this week. I am trying to portion out my day properly with fruits and more "real" food instead of just junk and snacks. It's not that easy! So far I have had a bowl of fiber plus cinnamon cereal and a hard boiled egg. Will see how I do!

I have been exercising a lot, we road our bikes this weekend 8am to my aunts house. We had to walk up the hill... couldn't ride up! I also went in our pool, it's been open for a few weeks but too cold to go in. It's still pretty cool but not bad. So I am exercising in that, I get the most exercise in the summer because I work out in the pool A LOT. Something I can do with my asthma and foot problem. It's also good for my mood issues. SO yay for pool!

Well I need to go work on some papers!

Hello,

Well my birthday was okay. I got some money which is always good. Then we went to Ihop for dinner ( I REALLY wanted pancakes) Well, the new cinnamon ones are not that good especially for the points! Then I had cake at home of course. Today was a weight watchers fail day! But hey it was my birthday. Back on track tomorrow! My dad want's to take me out too but I am trying to tell him I want to go to breakfast or something light instead, 2 days is not good!

That's about it!

I had my cousins graduation party yesterday and that went well, better than expected. My eating was good there but it was kinda boring besides that. More people showed up then said would. Including my aunt on my fathers side. My parents both have common family so it gets awkward at family functions ever since my parents got divorced. My dad and step mother will never go to a function of my moms side goes... so normally they leave my mom's side out so my dad can go... kind of stupid considering he was the cheater. Anyways it's been years now so they really need to suck it up and just come! It's always frustrating that he won't come. So yeah my dad didn't come. His sister that came talked to my mom. A few years ago she was pretty nasty with my mother because of lies my dad has told her. My mom and her were very close even after the divorce, my mom was actually the one to talk her into talking to my dad again (they were not on speaking terms). Anyway she apologized to my mom which is big.

After the party we went to my all time favorite restaurant which we don't go to often because it's in Brooklyn. So that's when I did bad on the diet, cheese burger, cheese onion rings, and a chocolate shake later... Not good! But it was totally worth it. At that point i was excited because it was after 6 and I was still alive hehe. Of course my aunt (with the drug problems) tried to steak a salt shaker, I know its only like a buck but I can't stand when she steals! So yeah I took it out of her bag and she was pretty pissed. Oh well!

Today my father came out and we went out for coffee and breakfast (yay for Starbucks) I got a light frap and oatmeal so I did well point wise. Later me and mom rode bikes again. I was super tired so that didn't last too long. I got some results back from the kidney doc and it is not any infection so I will need to get more tests. I was really hoping it was just an infection so the anti-biotics would just fix it. Now I am worried that it's my kidney disease >< Hopefully it's no big deal. I am supposed to call the doctor tomorrow but I don't really feel like it but I will see. My birthday is in a few days so I am trying to figure out where I will go for it. Oh decisions!

Well I hope everyone had a good weekend!

Hello peeps,

So I had weigh in today... up 1.2! Which is not awful I mean I did do pretty bad this week plus my period didn't help. I need to be really good this week to get back on track. I keep getting stuck around 35 pounds down... it's so frustrating. I exercised a ton yesterday in hopes to not gain today lol but 1 day of exercise isn't going to make up for a week of eating awful. 

I have my cousins graduation party tomorrow it's 2 hours away. I get anxious about these kind of things so I can't wait to get back! 

Anyways now I need to go work on more papers, boo!

Okay my diet has officially went to hell. I am so hungry it's crazy! I have not been this hungry for a really long time. I really need to be good today! I want to exercise at least 3 times today... I did that a few months ago every day and I did pretty well on the scales. 

I did walk last night, I need to be carful with that because of my injured ankle considering I missed physical therapy both days last week because of my car. I start again tomorrow which is good but it's super early in the morning! That's probably a good thing though because now I can't stay up late and have more time to eat! 

I really need to do my school work today I have been really putting it off, it's just so endless! Seriously there is only so much I can write about 2 pieces of art yet alone 10 pages on it. Besides I will get an A so they might as well just give it to me! 

Well I am going to go work on it now!

I am so tired! I didn't do too well on my diet the past 2 days! My mom got brownies and candy... good lord why would she do that to me!? I mean she is diabetic she shouldn't have it anyway! And she says "only have one," which is just oh so funny to hear! You know... like... 10 brownies after. Although they were kinda tiny! Then this chocolate with almonds... so good. Anyways, I am going to do super good tomorrow!  It's also my time of the month so like brownies are my enemy.

My kidneys are still not doing well. I called the doctor a few days ago and he said hopefully it is just a uti and put me on meds. But the meds are done and the same problems still exist! It's kind of frustrating because my kidney disease is not awful and actually my last visit my levels were better so this is kind of annoying. Oh well! I will get through this I always do. 

I went shopping today and got some capris. It is hard for me wearing stuff like that because my ankles are swollen because of meds I am on and the kidney problems. So I try and make my sneakers cover it and stuff. It's getting so hot I really hope I can make it work. I also got a bike rack for the back of my bike so I can go out and put stuff on it... not that I go out much! But it didn't fit right... I really need to get it to work! 

Yesterday I went for my second manicure with mom, I told her I will do it with her and she's all excited. It's not THAT bad I am actually kind of getting used to it. Although I do not see any blue in the blue color I picked out! hehe. 

Anyways I hope all is well with anyone reading! 

I better do well tomorrow with my diet! 

Down 1/4!

So no blog yesterday because blogger was down ALL DAY. It was pretty uneventful anyways. I had school and found out I still have a lot of work to do! I started 2 courses 2 months late because my first professor decided to never show up and none of the faculty seemed to want to do anything about the situation so I had to choose another 2 classes in place of them. Annoying but I will live.

Today was weigh in day and dun dun dun... down .4 or 1/4 a pound if you will. I happy it was not a gain at least! After what I ate on mother's day it was surprising not to mention I have my "friend." I hate when the ww ladies don't say anything when you get off the scale it really freaks me out! Except today after I got off she said "How is the thyroid meds coming along?" and I was like "Oh my God I gained everything back didn't I!!!" And she was like "no no your down!" Almost had a heart attack I tell you!

We went to Brooklyn today for my aunt's birthday, it was a bit emotional. Birthdays this year I imagine will be since grandma passed away in February. But besides the little bit of tears it went pretty well. Pretty much all my points were used for lunch! But it was worth it.

My aunt is a recovering drug/alcohol addict. We recently discovered some glass and homemade pipes in her apartment so we think she is using crack again. She insists she is not but that's to be expected. I think she needs to be in an in-treatment rehab again but my other aunt's think she just needs to go to NA and AA. They are great programs but I just don't think it's enough for her at the current time. They are worried she will loose her job if she has to go away again, but frankly if she goes down this road she will end up loosing it anyway. It is hard not having much say since I am just the niece. Since I was 13 I was taking care of my grandma, after high school I was pretty much her primary caregiver because her kids didn't want to help. Yet when it came time to make decisions regarding her they said I had no say! Frustrating. Oh well I will pray for the situation it's the most I can do.

Speaking of praying.... God has bent really awesome! People laugh but it's true! I have learned you can ask him for anything even the littlest things and he will come through. For example, today we hit a lot of traffic coming home from Brooklyn so I told my mom "well you know what we got to do, ask God to make it stop!" So after she laughed at me she went along with it. And within 15 seconds the traffic stopped. He's pretty awesome!

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!

PS- Thanks for the comments on my previous posts :)

I got my car back, yay! It wasn't anything big thank God. It was just a small coolant leak, only $90 bucks.

I still have not exercised today and it is 10:20PM, so I really need to get on that! I am so nervous about weigh in on Friday, the week after a loss I am always freaked out, weird I know.

Watching the new episode of South Park atm! South Park is the bomb... they are doing a dental hygiene pageant or something lol

Cyas peeps

Well today was pretty uneventful. I tried to work on my final essay and I couldn't get more than 2 pages out of the required 6.... Will try again in a little bit. I also dropped my car at the shop, praying it will be okay!

I am finding myself super hungry the past few days which really stink's considering I lost 2 pounds last week. And I am really craving chocolate! Oh well I just need to get myself back on program!

I rode bikes again, yay! The best part of being on bikes is going down hill, seriously I wish everywhere was down hill! I don't care for the up parts! I am back on my exercise every day and would like to add another time each day, I shall start that tomorrow.

Our new tenant smokes and it is driving my asthma insane! He denies smoking in the house though which is bull... Ugh! I smell the smoke right now grrr

Nights

Mondays!

Feel a little sick today, I think it's the weather changing. My allergies and asthma are horrible and kind of driving me a bit insane hehe Not to mention it is making my teeth hurt! My car is still broken and I spoke to my dad about it and I will be taking it to the shop tomorrow, hopeful it won't be a big deal. Praying about that.

I didn't get to ride my bike today! *sad face* I had therapy and it kid of get's in the way of things, I walked instead.

Well that's about it, I know a boring day!

Mother's Day

Well today was Mother's Day, I am not a mother but I have one! I love her very much as she is pretty awesome and always there for me even though I can be and was very difficult. I don't like to get painted nails and stuff like that but I made an exception and went to get a manicure with her. It was very awkward as I am not used to it at all. They came out pretty good I suppose except one of them is already chipped!

I got her an itunes and nail plus gift card then we went out to a Steak House to eat. I did very good point wise until... dun dun dun... desert! I got cheesecake and good lord it must of been like a million points. It was totally worth it though.

When we got home we rode our bikes again, I am getting much better at turning! Yay!

I volunteered at church on the computer last night and didn't get to bed until 2:30am so  I am super tired and cannot wait to sleep tonight!

Well, that's it for tonight!

Weight Watchers, Bikes, and Broken Cars

Oh my first post, how exciting! I have not had a journal for a super long time. If you didn't read my profile, I am on weight watchers. It's been a struggle especially with a recently found thyroid imbalance that we are finally working on. Adjustment periods with the medication really stink! I am proud to announce though that I FINALLY lost 2.2 pound during my Friday weigh in. My total so far is down 34 pounds, taking a very long time! 

The eating write is fairly simple, I never really ate bad or anything but it could of used some improvements like eating more "real" food. Exercise on the other hand has always been difficult. Health issues always made it challenging but recently I have found ways to do it in ways I can. I can walk about 45 minutes to an hour now which is pretty cool. When I am not feeling well I find other things to do like stretching or exercise DVD's, as long as I am still moving I am happy! 

Today I actually got a bike (birthday gift from my father.) It is fairly easy to ride. I need to work on turning and going up hill... Haha it sounds funny I know! But I get kind of freaked out like I will fall when I try to turn! My mother and I tried riding to my aunt's house but it was too hard with all the hills so we just rode around the neighborhood for a bit. Very excited about the bike. 

God has been very good lately, well he is always God but I am just recently realizing how simple things can be when you truly understand that all you have to do is ask God for help. From my health to getting things I want God has surely helped me! My newest prayer is for him to fix my car, today the AC broke and the temperature gauge went all the way to hot. It sounds bad but I know it's possible when it comes to asking God! 

I know I can ask my father for help but I feel bad doing so when he just purchased me the bike and such. I am currently on SSI and giving the money to my mother to help her pay for the mortgage every month so financially I am not doing too great. 

Well that's it for tonight, I volunteer at church tonight so it will be a late night!