Hey,

So I have not posted for a couple of days, have been busy.

I got a parakeet! It's very exciting really, I am trying to tame her (maybe her?) Her name is Jackie after my Grandmother. She is yellow, my favorite color! The lady at pet smart told me her wings were clipped but when I got her home I realized she was wrong after chasing her for an hour and her landing on top of my wall unit. Such liars there! I am not sure if I will have them clipped or not.

I am trying with my diet really hard this week. I am trying to portion out my day properly with fruits and more "real" food instead of just junk and snacks. It's not that easy! So far I have had a bowl of fiber plus cinnamon cereal and a hard boiled egg. Will see how I do!

I have been exercising a lot, we road our bikes this weekend 8am to my aunts house. We had to walk up the hill... couldn't ride up! I also went in our pool, it's been open for a few weeks but too cold to go in. It's still pretty cool but not bad. So I am exercising in that, I get the most exercise in the summer because I work out in the pool A LOT. Something I can do with my asthma and foot problem. It's also good for my mood issues. SO yay for pool!

Well I need to go work on some papers!

Hello,

Well my birthday was okay. I got some money which is always good. Then we went to Ihop for dinner ( I REALLY wanted pancakes) Well, the new cinnamon ones are not that good especially for the points! Then I had cake at home of course. Today was a weight watchers fail day! But hey it was my birthday. Back on track tomorrow! My dad want's to take me out too but I am trying to tell him I want to go to breakfast or something light instead, 2 days is not good!

That's about it!

I had my cousins graduation party yesterday and that went well, better than expected. My eating was good there but it was kinda boring besides that. More people showed up then said would. Including my aunt on my fathers side. My parents both have common family so it gets awkward at family functions ever since my parents got divorced. My dad and step mother will never go to a function of my moms side goes... so normally they leave my mom's side out so my dad can go... kind of stupid considering he was the cheater. Anyways it's been years now so they really need to suck it up and just come! It's always frustrating that he won't come. So yeah my dad didn't come. His sister that came talked to my mom. A few years ago she was pretty nasty with my mother because of lies my dad has told her. My mom and her were very close even after the divorce, my mom was actually the one to talk her into talking to my dad again (they were not on speaking terms). Anyway she apologized to my mom which is big.

After the party we went to my all time favorite restaurant which we don't go to often because it's in Brooklyn. So that's when I did bad on the diet, cheese burger, cheese onion rings, and a chocolate shake later... Not good! But it was totally worth it. At that point i was excited because it was after 6 and I was still alive hehe. Of course my aunt (with the drug problems) tried to steak a salt shaker, I know its only like a buck but I can't stand when she steals! So yeah I took it out of her bag and she was pretty pissed. Oh well!

Today my father came out and we went out for coffee and breakfast (yay for Starbucks) I got a light frap and oatmeal so I did well point wise. Later me and mom rode bikes again. I was super tired so that didn't last too long. I got some results back from the kidney doc and it is not any infection so I will need to get more tests. I was really hoping it was just an infection so the anti-biotics would just fix it. Now I am worried that it's my kidney disease >< Hopefully it's no big deal. I am supposed to call the doctor tomorrow but I don't really feel like it but I will see. My birthday is in a few days so I am trying to figure out where I will go for it. Oh decisions!

Well I hope everyone had a good weekend!

Hello peeps,

So I had weigh in today... up 1.2! Which is not awful I mean I did do pretty bad this week plus my period didn't help. I need to be really good this week to get back on track. I keep getting stuck around 35 pounds down... it's so frustrating. I exercised a ton yesterday in hopes to not gain today lol but 1 day of exercise isn't going to make up for a week of eating awful. 

I have my cousins graduation party tomorrow it's 2 hours away. I get anxious about these kind of things so I can't wait to get back! 

Anyways now I need to go work on more papers, boo!

Okay my diet has officially went to hell. I am so hungry it's crazy! I have not been this hungry for a really long time. I really need to be good today! I want to exercise at least 3 times today... I did that a few months ago every day and I did pretty well on the scales. 

I did walk last night, I need to be carful with that because of my injured ankle considering I missed physical therapy both days last week because of my car. I start again tomorrow which is good but it's super early in the morning! That's probably a good thing though because now I can't stay up late and have more time to eat! 

I really need to do my school work today I have been really putting it off, it's just so endless! Seriously there is only so much I can write about 2 pieces of art yet alone 10 pages on it. Besides I will get an A so they might as well just give it to me! 

Well I am going to go work on it now!

I am so tired! I didn't do too well on my diet the past 2 days! My mom got brownies and candy... good lord why would she do that to me!? I mean she is diabetic she shouldn't have it anyway! And she says "only have one," which is just oh so funny to hear! You know... like... 10 brownies after. Although they were kinda tiny! Then this chocolate with almonds... so good. Anyways, I am going to do super good tomorrow!  It's also my time of the month so like brownies are my enemy.

My kidneys are still not doing well. I called the doctor a few days ago and he said hopefully it is just a uti and put me on meds. But the meds are done and the same problems still exist! It's kind of frustrating because my kidney disease is not awful and actually my last visit my levels were better so this is kind of annoying. Oh well! I will get through this I always do. 

I went shopping today and got some capris. It is hard for me wearing stuff like that because my ankles are swollen because of meds I am on and the kidney problems. So I try and make my sneakers cover it and stuff. It's getting so hot I really hope I can make it work. I also got a bike rack for the back of my bike so I can go out and put stuff on it... not that I go out much! But it didn't fit right... I really need to get it to work! 

Yesterday I went for my second manicure with mom, I told her I will do it with her and she's all excited. It's not THAT bad I am actually kind of getting used to it. Although I do not see any blue in the blue color I picked out! hehe. 

Anyways I hope all is well with anyone reading! 

I better do well tomorrow with my diet! 

Down 1/4!

So no blog yesterday because blogger was down ALL DAY. It was pretty uneventful anyways. I had school and found out I still have a lot of work to do! I started 2 courses 2 months late because my first professor decided to never show up and none of the faculty seemed to want to do anything about the situation so I had to choose another 2 classes in place of them. Annoying but I will live.

Today was weigh in day and dun dun dun... down .4 or 1/4 a pound if you will. I happy it was not a gain at least! After what I ate on mother's day it was surprising not to mention I have my "friend." I hate when the ww ladies don't say anything when you get off the scale it really freaks me out! Except today after I got off she said "How is the thyroid meds coming along?" and I was like "Oh my God I gained everything back didn't I!!!" And she was like "no no your down!" Almost had a heart attack I tell you!

We went to Brooklyn today for my aunt's birthday, it was a bit emotional. Birthdays this year I imagine will be since grandma passed away in February. But besides the little bit of tears it went pretty well. Pretty much all my points were used for lunch! But it was worth it.

My aunt is a recovering drug/alcohol addict. We recently discovered some glass and homemade pipes in her apartment so we think she is using crack again. She insists she is not but that's to be expected. I think she needs to be in an in-treatment rehab again but my other aunt's think she just needs to go to NA and AA. They are great programs but I just don't think it's enough for her at the current time. They are worried she will loose her job if she has to go away again, but frankly if she goes down this road she will end up loosing it anyway. It is hard not having much say since I am just the niece. Since I was 13 I was taking care of my grandma, after high school I was pretty much her primary caregiver because her kids didn't want to help. Yet when it came time to make decisions regarding her they said I had no say! Frustrating. Oh well I will pray for the situation it's the most I can do.

Speaking of praying.... God has bent really awesome! People laugh but it's true! I have learned you can ask him for anything even the littlest things and he will come through. For example, today we hit a lot of traffic coming home from Brooklyn so I told my mom "well you know what we got to do, ask God to make it stop!" So after she laughed at me she went along with it. And within 15 seconds the traffic stopped. He's pretty awesome!

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!

PS- Thanks for the comments on my previous posts :)

I got my car back, yay! It wasn't anything big thank God. It was just a small coolant leak, only $90 bucks.

I still have not exercised today and it is 10:20PM, so I really need to get on that! I am so nervous about weigh in on Friday, the week after a loss I am always freaked out, weird I know.

Watching the new episode of South Park atm! South Park is the bomb... they are doing a dental hygiene pageant or something lol

Cyas peeps

Well today was pretty uneventful. I tried to work on my final essay and I couldn't get more than 2 pages out of the required 6.... Will try again in a little bit. I also dropped my car at the shop, praying it will be okay!

I am finding myself super hungry the past few days which really stink's considering I lost 2 pounds last week. And I am really craving chocolate! Oh well I just need to get myself back on program!

I rode bikes again, yay! The best part of being on bikes is going down hill, seriously I wish everywhere was down hill! I don't care for the up parts! I am back on my exercise every day and would like to add another time each day, I shall start that tomorrow.

Our new tenant smokes and it is driving my asthma insane! He denies smoking in the house though which is bull... Ugh! I smell the smoke right now grrr

Nights

Mondays!

Feel a little sick today, I think it's the weather changing. My allergies and asthma are horrible and kind of driving me a bit insane hehe Not to mention it is making my teeth hurt! My car is still broken and I spoke to my dad about it and I will be taking it to the shop tomorrow, hopeful it won't be a big deal. Praying about that.

I didn't get to ride my bike today! *sad face* I had therapy and it kid of get's in the way of things, I walked instead.

Well that's about it, I know a boring day!

Mother's Day

Well today was Mother's Day, I am not a mother but I have one! I love her very much as she is pretty awesome and always there for me even though I can be and was very difficult. I don't like to get painted nails and stuff like that but I made an exception and went to get a manicure with her. It was very awkward as I am not used to it at all. They came out pretty good I suppose except one of them is already chipped!

I got her an itunes and nail plus gift card then we went out to a Steak House to eat. I did very good point wise until... dun dun dun... desert! I got cheesecake and good lord it must of been like a million points. It was totally worth it though.

When we got home we rode our bikes again, I am getting much better at turning! Yay!

I volunteered at church on the computer last night and didn't get to bed until 2:30am so  I am super tired and cannot wait to sleep tonight!

Well, that's it for tonight!

Weight Watchers, Bikes, and Broken Cars

Oh my first post, how exciting! I have not had a journal for a super long time. If you didn't read my profile, I am on weight watchers. It's been a struggle especially with a recently found thyroid imbalance that we are finally working on. Adjustment periods with the medication really stink! I am proud to announce though that I FINALLY lost 2.2 pound during my Friday weigh in. My total so far is down 34 pounds, taking a very long time! 

The eating write is fairly simple, I never really ate bad or anything but it could of used some improvements like eating more "real" food. Exercise on the other hand has always been difficult. Health issues always made it challenging but recently I have found ways to do it in ways I can. I can walk about 45 minutes to an hour now which is pretty cool. When I am not feeling well I find other things to do like stretching or exercise DVD's, as long as I am still moving I am happy! 

Today I actually got a bike (birthday gift from my father.) It is fairly easy to ride. I need to work on turning and going up hill... Haha it sounds funny I know! But I get kind of freaked out like I will fall when I try to turn! My mother and I tried riding to my aunt's house but it was too hard with all the hills so we just rode around the neighborhood for a bit. Very excited about the bike. 

God has been very good lately, well he is always God but I am just recently realizing how simple things can be when you truly understand that all you have to do is ask God for help. From my health to getting things I want God has surely helped me! My newest prayer is for him to fix my car, today the AC broke and the temperature gauge went all the way to hot. It sounds bad but I know it's possible when it comes to asking God! 

I know I can ask my father for help but I feel bad doing so when he just purchased me the bike and such. I am currently on SSI and giving the money to my mother to help her pay for the mortgage every month so financially I am not doing too great. 

Well that's it for tonight, I volunteer at church tonight so it will be a late night!